Yesterday, in the dark wee hours of the morning, I woke to what I swore was the sound of glass breaking. The wind had picked up followed by torrential rain, as promised by that day’s weather forecast, and our old house shuddered and whined as the newest wild weather system crashed into it. I went back into an uneasy sleep.
I wake up early these days, 4am. Bundle I has a half-day in the public school kindergarten, and Bundle II’s pre-school days end at 2pm. My progressive, “we’re all about life-work-family balance” employer doesn’t have a work-from-home policy, and is apparently large enough that it needs a policy in order to accommodate a lone individual with a 70-mile round trip commute, two young children in school and a job that is, let’s face it, 99% about remotely managing servers. Lionel now works three days a week; someone has to get the kids to school, and someone has to get them back out again. So; he goes to work at 10am and finishes up his day at 6pm, and I go to work at 5am and finish my day at 2pm, where upon I scramble around to pick up the kids from their respective places (Bundle II at her pre-school, which has a robust aftercare program, and Bundle I at the at-home child care provider, since her publicly funded school does not). If I’m lucky, I might be in bed–and asleep– by 10:30pm. Suffice to say I’m not getting the long end of the stick at the moment.
Yesterday upon waking up, the wind and rain lashing the house, I uneasily ventured outside to retrieve items from the car which inevitably get left behind from the previous day, and was greeted by a moist, warm, evil blast of air. I checked the thermometer. 57 degrees F. The tiny bit of snow pack we’ve managed to accumulate this winter was rapidly disappearing. I shivered despite the warmth, grabbed my items and ran back inside. Finally I was ready to venture back out, and slowly made my tedious way through the rain and gale force winds to my job.
As I finished up my day in the afternoon, the wind was still blowing, but the temperature had dropped down to 38 degrees and was forecast to go back down into the 20s by sunset. I complained about the crazy commute in and the weather in general to a colleague and their comment was “Yeah, well, if you don’t like the weather in New England, just wait a few minutes.”
Yeah. Okay. Trite Twain platitudes aside, the weather pattern was actually breaking temperature extreme records all over the place, and was a direct result of a misplaced jet stream and stratospheric warming, causing tornadoes further south and forcing flood and gale warnings up and down the eastern seaboard. And furthermore, just the week before we had seen temperature records falling on the other extreme, dipping well below zero. Eventually, gentle reader, if it looks like a duck, it’s probably a duck. And the carbon that I was spewing into that warm, unseasonable, extremely high force wind at 4:30am on my mostly unneccessary-but-for-policy commute wasn’t helping the situation at all.
When I was in my 20’s and reasonably endowed with a strong education, I believed the solution to problems was pretty much black-and-white. Don’t enjoy your commute in the morning? Move closer to your job. Or get a job closer to home. Or, don’t work. Case closed. But with the passage of time, a few small children and a whole lot of brain cells dying every minute of my day, the situation has gotten a lot more complex from a whole bunch of different angles. The need to be employed in order to obtain adequate healthcare. The reality of needing to pay out for electricity and phone services and taxes and food. The fact that the town I live in has no industry and furthermore has no interest in having any industry. My children’s future educational needs. The ties that bind us to the land we live on. Each angle has its own, sometimes even relatively simple, solution, certainly. But the solutions we arrive at might not add up to a coherent whole.
When I got back home yesterday after navigating around downed branches and trees and rapidly freezing puddles, I pulled back into my own driveway with some relief to see that the only visible damage was one chicken coop which had blown over. Even though I had woken to the sound of shattering glass, we could find no evidence of it. The wind continued to howl outside, the audible, tangible roar of a climate officially gone awry, a human populace officially failing to navigate its way out of the hole it dug. It blew long into the night and finally departed in the wee hours. The shattered glass sound? Maybe it was just the sound of clashing possibilities.